“I’m ugly.” Reblog if you ever said that. I don’t care how many notes this gets, I will message each and every one of you(:
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14431 I know who i am but i dont mean to be the way i am.
I’m a bitch, a hypochondriac, and sometimes a little self centered. I know this and i know you do to.
But what you dont know is after i bitch at people i feel like complete shit.
i always end up hurting people but its cause i think if i hurt them first they cant hurt me but in the end i get hurt cause it hurt both of us.
its a continuing circle that i seem not to be able to stop.
I’m depressed and scared, over nothing but its cause people have made me scared in the past.
I have problems making commitment only because i think i wont be able to achieve what people or my self expect me to do, so with out even trying i let my self fail with out a care on the out side but with full resentment on the inside.
Point being Ive fucked up and continue too but i dont mean to. i wish i could stop but i need help and Ive asked for it but it has not came yet.
Until then il just keep building my self up to tear myself down.
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411 The reason i stay SINGLE
Most of the time when people ask me why im single, i say its cause i want to be.
But to be honest theres a real reason to it.
See i dated this guy, i liked him i even can say i loved him at one point.
At first everything was great, but then i started to lose controll over the small things like, what color my hair should be, what i could and couldnt wear.. ect.
I delt with it, i just told my self he knew what was best for me.
Then the loss of control grew to the point where i had to be with him everyday, but i still thought “loved” me. relationship
Eventually it came down to the point where when i wasnt with him i was “cheating” on him and then when i would try to explaine my self about where i was he would call me all diffrent kinds of names. Like SLUT, BITCH, CUNT, PRICK, FAT ASS, UGLY.
i dealt with it for a few more months and then realized this wasnt love, it was nothing close, but that was til i had no pride in my self.
I believed all of it at that point that i was all tho’s things. i still do cause he has it so drummed in my head that I WILL NEVER BE GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE.
But thats not the end of it, still till this day he’ll find a way to get a hold of me and reminds me everytime that im all of that.
even tho im really not, i think i am cause its there in the back of my mind.
i wish it wasnt.
There it is tho the reason im single, cause IM NOT GOOD ENOUGH FOR ANYONE, thanks to him.
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Sometimes i dont wanna be here but when i say that i dont mean i wanna be dead. i just mean i wanna be some where else where thers nothing that reminds me of the life i have. i wanna be able to for get all the bad for a while. Just so i can say im okay. but il never be okay, no ones ever okay, because okay is a state of mind . feeling. its when your content. when its “OKAY”.
2 Right now i wanna run, i wanna run until i cant breath, i wanna not be able to catch my breath to the point where it makes me throw up, and i wanna just pass out, right there in the cold concrete.
3 Anonymous asked: do you like sex?
Im a virgin.
3 I always go back to the same people.
I always go back to the same people. I think i have a pretty good understand why but i sure as hell i didnt. I miss dating new people.
Sometimes i think its cause i dont like taking a risk but then i realize i take a lot of ricks in my life. then i think it maybe because i feel relaxed with the person but then it dawns on me that its defiantly not that due to the fact i change my self for each person. My main way to think of why i do it is because its something stabel, there has never been a time where i couldnt turn around and the guy/guys are will to let what ever happened between us go. ( kinda not a good thing on there part). the guys i go back to for coverage are scum bags, they treat me like shit they yell curse cheat and all that great shit, but i always come up with an excuse for them like “Oh he had a bad day he didnt mena it” or ” he wont do it again, theres always room for change right ?” i ask myself. but none of this ever changes.
Today i kinda realized that if you sit back and dont take stand NOTHING will ever change for you. You create change change doesnt create you .
P.S
when i said i GUYS i didnt mean like 10 i meant like 2
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